home sweet home and my random crapz.

am drinking milo and hell yeah using my brain,thinking.
lotsa things come and go off my head.
can't even have the peaceful mind. zzz.
finally home sweet home and now im typing here and wondering actually how much free time i have got.
or should i do some other things which are more beneficial or which is under my responsibility?

now am going to talk about 'new start'.
since it's december and soon, next year won't be 2009 anymore but instead,2010.
two more years to the freaking "so-called" the end of the world, 2012.
of course i hope it wont come so fast as i am jus 18 by then, jus know how to drive a car. -.-
( i haven watch the movie. how outdated am i -.- )

i cut my hair, not recently but quite sometimes.
i have kept my hair for one year and just phew, RM12 and it is like the me when i was in primary 2. XD
"so kasihannya u cut it!!"/ "u will regret!!"/ "another 'mushroom'??"
comments i heard but still got others la. zzz.

why i cut it? i also dunno why i just feel like it.
sometimes i jus know i have to let go of something and this maybe concluded too.
just step out the first step, and towards a new me.
it is not easy to start and it is even harder to go on.

how much changes i see from myself?
have i transformed into a better person? or just worse?
it takes determination to do something and have i got it yet?
or just like before the lazy ass i am?

my point is, when u actually decide to change, not only from the outside,but the inside.
like a kampung girl, she says she wan to be FASHION and STYLISH, yea maybe from outside she can do that,but the her inside, is still the kampung girl. get what i mean?
and actually i am just talking crap and releasing my randomness. zzz.

i love the movie 'JUMP'. i get its point which is if u like something, go for it. never ever give up.
cindy, never ever give up.
cindy, get your dream.
cindy, dare to be yourself.
cindy, it is time to let go of the past.

little notes to myself.
the ending of my crap.
sorry for wasting ur time.

what i've done :

i dunno where i actually get those bravery to do things liddat, but yeah i did it! at least i did. so feel proud of myself! i dun care whether i didn't any get applause or compliments. because,the most important is, i get over myself. *clap for myself!*

the most important in this post is, you must get over yourself.
get over ur obstacles in ur heart.
get over it.

and u will have a new start.

:]

we live in the world together, we see the world together, we chase our dreams together and we are together.